Category: Randomness

Sure am looking forward to these two characters coming this week!  Watch out Flagler Beach!

It’s lovely to be home. Even though ‘home’ has really only been home for about six months, it’s still home. Thom’s here; Sadie’s here; my ‘stuff’ is here, so it’s home.

We happily hit the beach early and had a great time in the surf ridin’ the tide, as Sarah says. I think I was under water as much as I was above it, but it was still wonderfully refreshing. Sadie found a great way to stay cool in the shade behind our chairs:

By the time the rest of the world (spring breakers) arrived, we were ready to leave and enjoy the rest of the day.

I’m here with my Sarah as she begins her transition to life without Rick. The week after his passing went by in a blur with friends and family surrounding her. She asked me to stay later than my intended date of the 12th, so I am here until the 15th. We drink coffee and talk, she runs her dogs, I knit, we do errands and watch movies. And all the time I try and picture her here in this beautiful log home alone. And it kills me. Carrie said it best, through tears, “I know Rick is in a better place. But you’re here without him, and I don’t want you to hurt!“

It’s how we all feel. And there’s nothing we can do except keep in constant contact, let her know she’s loved and that we’re here for her if she wants or needs us. It is all baby steps for her now, and she knows it.

                                      “They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death is but crossing the

                                                     world, as friends do the seas; they live in one another still.”–William Penn

 

                       “The world is a quiet place…its images forever fixed. They do not vanish. They can

                               be remembered, and they can be foreseen. Nothing and no one are lost.”    

                                                                                                                                                                   ~Mark Helprin

 

She is losing her beloved. While they knew each other a lifetime, their time together was too short. How is this fair? I can think of a few people that deserve his fate more than he. Why is that? Why one and not another? Why is there no answer that will satisfy?

She will be forever changed by this. How can she not be? She will join the unenviable club of women who were left too soon, too young, too unexpectedly. She will see the lives around her go on. People driving their cars. Shopping. Having lunch. Laughing with friends. She will wonder, how do they go on? Don’t they know how the world has changed?

I’m grateful for her children; they will keep her focused, keep her HERE.

I call her the steel magnolia. She will never be the same.

And there is nothing I can do.